up and can't sleep...save me

so, I'm awake and can't sleep. I keep thinking about things, and I just want to sleep, but it's one of those times where I can't help it. I kept thinking about how I wish there was someone else here with me. Then a little while ago I started to think about why, and I think it might be the fact that with someone else here I'd be able to stop thinking about what's going on in my head and think more about the other person. This would let me move my conscious out of my own head and finally be able to rest.

Another reason though, that having another person here would help is that I'm just so damn lonely. I try not to admit it because that makes me sad but it's true. If only I had someone to hold, or even if I could concentrate my thoughts on one person, it would help. Of course, if it was the second option, it'd help alot if the feeling was mutual. It's nice to think that someone else is thinking about you at the same time.

Since, however, I don't have one person to hold, kiss, or event think about, I'm just stuck here. I just keep thinking about how nice it would be to have someone here. I mean, there are people I think about, but I keep skipping between different people where there could possibly, in some crazy world where my life actually made sense, be something. But that's even part of the problem. If I keep skipping between people who I don't know the feelings of, I keep wondering and that makes it even worse.

To be honest, I've been mainly thinking about one girl specifically. But because I don't know how she feels towards me, I keep wondering, and then I start wondering about other girls, and the unending process begins again.

Well, wish me luck. I'm going to go try and fall asleep again.